Sick Of It!!!

I'm so tired of trying to do things to make him feel loved! I've had it! Last night he decided he was going to come visit me. I was excited. I really want to see him before I leave for school. A couple of hours later I noticed that he had deleted the comment I left him on Facebook, all it said was "Love you." I asked why he deleted it, if he was afraid someone would see it. He said no, he deleted it because it made him "feel uncomfortable." Well fuck you too. Maybe I should start saying THAT when the conversation ends, maybe that won't make him "feel uncomfortable." I'm so sick of trying to make this work out. He obviously doesn't care about me, & I would rather find someone who does at this rate. If he changes his mind, HE can come find ME.

I'm done.

I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted to
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
(We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Pushes me away